I remember the day I decided to follow Jesus. It was great! But If I knew then, what I know now I probably wouldn’t have made the leap. And I’m glad no one told me. I was not aware that on that day I become a little blip on the devil’s radar. That day the devil knew I was going to give him some trouble.
Today I had a meltdown. It was just a buildup of all the struggles I’ve been having and I just couldn’t take it anymore and I started to cry. It’s like I can’t get a break. There is always a problem, something that’s holding me back or someone for that matter who is discouraging me. I’m just tired of the stuff going on in my life.
On the positive side I’ve decided to learn from it and lean on God instead of curling into a ball and trying to hide or ignore it. Yes it sucks to be poor, tired, persecuted and discouraged but God is still good and He’s still watching over me. And as long as I’m on HIS radar, I’ll be taken care of.
After my meltdown I was rumbling through my purse looking for something and I found a scripture I got from church on a little piece of paper. It reads:
“We live in such a way that no one will stumble because of us, and no one will find fault with our ministry. In everything we do, we show that we are true ministers of God. We patiently endure troubles and hardships and calamities of every kind. We have been beaten, been put in prison, faced angry mobs, worked to exhaustion, endured sleepless nights, and gone without food. We prove ourselves by our purity, our understanding, out patience, our kindness, by the Spirit within us faithfully, and by our sincere love. We faithfully preach the truth. God’s power is working in us. We use the weapons of righteousness in the right hand for attack and the left hand for defense. We serve God whether people honor us or despise us, whether they slander us or praise us. We are honest, but they call us imposters. We are ignored even though we are well known. We live close to death, but we are still alive. We have been beaten, but we have not been killed. Our hearts ache, but we always have joy. We are poor but we give spiritual riches to others. We own nothing, and yet we have everything.”
-2 Corinthians 6:3-10
After reading this I felt a little better about my situation and I knew I would be able to withstand more trials.
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